Give a life or fake a life..

How many times can you possibly be put second if not last..? I feel like people always underestimate others. I always put friends first. If they need me I'LL BE THERE. I will find any possible way to get to them if they truly need me. I often wish that others did the same.. or even showed that they care at all. I'm often left with the idea that people don't see me in the same great perspective as I see them and it is quite a letdown. My self esteem is thrown in a tank of hydrochloric acid and it disintegrates.. just like that. It's like the times where I get so depressed where I just start talking nonsense. It's only because my depression can take me to a whole different zone that isn't me. Friends will say "oh don't do that" or "you're crazy for thinking that" but I feel like it's because they don't want to feel like a jerk and not respond. Or it's because they feel obligated to say it, not because they really care. That's when I stop responding because I feel like I'm being annoying.. yet I really feel like I need the help by actually being able to talk to someone. It helps calm me down and keeps me distracted from other things. People tend to say words and do such things that do not have meaning behind them and that's the biggest issue here. I hear all the time that people would give their life to help someone else. Yet every time I hear it I never believe they would actually do it. I like those days when the national holiday is like "please a person day" or something like that but I feel like it should be everyday. People should be able to always look at a situation in everyone's perspective before they go and say something or do something. Most of the time someone doesn't even have to do anything to hurt someone's feelings but the emptiness of a person's heart can really tear another's.

The song that completely supports this is: You Should've Killed Me When You Had The Chance by A Day To Remember

Nosebleed?

So since I haven't posted a blog in a while I mind as well rant about my most current nosebleed (ten minutes ago). Most people know that it's not unusual for me to get nosebleeds since I have them about four times a week (at least). I don't know if there's something wrong with my blood or my head or what. It's probably both since I tend to get light-headed quite frequently as well. Maybe I have some deathly disease.. I wish.. but I've been getting them since I was at least 12 so I'm used to them by now. They're VERY annoying. So here we go:

how lovely..

this is the first blood droplet!

then I started to bleed INTO the first sink.. the one with no running water...

Then I ran to my other sink.. (with running water)

Wanna close up?

Oh? You didn't?

And this is my attempt to clean the sink with no running water...

The point of this story is that there isn't one and that I was asked to write a blog... this is the best I could come up with... Probably not haha but I didn't want to think too much about what to write about. Oh and here's a tip: never tilt your head back when you have a nosebleed because then all the blood will just rush to your brain. Just pinch the part of your nose where the bone ends and the cartilage starts. It'll stop the bleeding after about two minutes.

Age Is Just a Measurement.

Age. What is it? It's merely a measurement of time. Nothing else. It doesn't serve as a way to figure out what someone is like at a more personal level. Age tells nothing about a person except the physical state of their body. All it is, is an excuse to make judgement about a person before you actually get to know them. Just because a teenager is a teenager does not mean that they are any less capable of doing things any adult could do. Decision making is the same. It does not depend on age, but maturity and responsibility. For example: just because I am 17 doesn't necessarily mean I AM 17. All it really means is that I can't legally drink or smoke, and that I am still in high school and can't go into sex shops. That's all it means legally but I think that's bullshit. Obviously drinking and smoking shouldn't be legal til you're 18/21 anyway because some people are still very immature then. Even when some "adults" turn 21 they can still be immature as fuck and should still be put in time out. IN CONCLUSION, people should stop being so prejudice and get to know people before they judge them on age. Why does age really matter any way? Just for legal purposes which are complete bullshit anyway.