Give a life or fake a life..

How many times can you possibly be put second if not last..? I feel like people always underestimate others. I always put friends first. If they need me I'LL BE THERE. I will find any possible way to get to them if they truly need me. I often wish that others did the same.. or even showed that they care at all. I'm often left with the idea that people don't see me in the same great perspective as I see them and it is quite a letdown. My self esteem is thrown in a tank of hydrochloric acid and it disintegrates.. just like that. It's like the times where I get so depressed where I just start talking nonsense. It's only because my depression can take me to a whole different zone that isn't me. Friends will say "oh don't do that" or "you're crazy for thinking that" but I feel like it's because they don't want to feel like a jerk and not respond. Or it's because they feel obligated to say it, not because they really care. That's when I stop responding because I feel like I'm being annoying.. yet I really feel like I need the help by actually being able to talk to someone. It helps calm me down and keeps me distracted from other things. People tend to say words and do such things that do not have meaning behind them and that's the biggest issue here. I hear all the time that people would give their life to help someone else. Yet every time I hear it I never believe they would actually do it. I like those days when the national holiday is like "please a person day" or something like that but I feel like it should be everyday. People should be able to always look at a situation in everyone's perspective before they go and say something or do something. Most of the time someone doesn't even have to do anything to hurt someone's feelings but the emptiness of a person's heart can really tear another's.

The song that completely supports this is: You Should've Killed Me When You Had The Chance by A Day To Remember