domination.

I absolutely despise living at home. I cannot stand my mom. She has these crazy unnecessary rules. I mean I get good grades like As sometimes Bs, I have a solid job which I excel at, I have my license, I'm responsible, I don't drink or smoke, I don't party, so why does she have all this control over me? I can't wait to move out next year. Living with my sister will eliminate most stress I'm having now a days. I see my sister, who is 20, and she's still being controlled by my mom because my mom pays for her college and such. I'm not going to be entitled to that bullshit. I'm going to be me. I was almost so close to not going to college at all and just moving out of my house and getting my own apartment. I don't see why she doesn't allow me to drive anywhere. It's like she wouldn't let me drive to see my boyfriend in Quincy because it's past Boston. It's not like I hadn't driven there before but when I actually asked her if I could (instead of going behind her back) she wouldn't let me. That was basically the only way I could see him hence the reason he didn't work or have a job. So I'm basically allowed to drive around beverly and its surrounding cities. I also love my 10 o'clock curfews during the week (in summer, 8 during school) and my 11 o'clock curfews during the weekends. So technically if I work during the week I get to hangout with friends for two hours (at most) afterward. Oh and my mom totally doesn't allow piercings or tattooing while we're not "financially independent." Which is just dandy because I personally feel like it's restricting me from who I am. It's a burden on how I express myself. Plus the fact that it's what I want to do when I'm older is get my piercing and tattooing licenses. It's just great. P.S. She doesn't allow incense or candles in our rooms either.. cause I'm totally gunna burn this house down. seriously! AH!

Dreams

I'd really like to know the significance of a death dream. So me and my cat we're severely dying of some sort of disease. Well I know I was but I'm not sure if my cat was dying because he was getting old. In my dream the doctor and my sister were telling me I was going to die that night. I feel like I kept myself awake in the dream to prevent myself from dying.. Of course you can never die in your own dreams because your brain prevents that from happening. The dream was messed up. Then my younger sister was being told that she was going to die the morning after me. AND THEN my older sister was told she was sick. I also had a little kitten that had been put down but I do not know why. The kitten was the size of a mouse and it had a friend.. who I think was a mouse. It was a crazy dream. Anyone care to analyze it for me?