Dreams

I'd really like to know the significance of a death dream. So me and my cat we're severely dying of some sort of disease. Well I know I was but I'm not sure if my cat was dying because he was getting old. In my dream the doctor and my sister were telling me I was going to die that night. I feel like I kept myself awake in the dream to prevent myself from dying.. Of course you can never die in your own dreams because your brain prevents that from happening. The dream was messed up. Then my younger sister was being told that she was going to die the morning after me. AND THEN my older sister was told she was sick. I also had a little kitten that had been put down but I do not know why. The kitten was the size of a mouse and it had a friend.. who I think was a mouse. It was a crazy dream. Anyone care to analyze it for me?

Let down

I don't know why I constantly do it but I always look for the best in people, and they never cease to constantly let me down. It's usually when I need them the most too. They brush me aside as if I mean nothing. Well, if you're going to do that then why even bother? oh right.. you don't. It shouldn't hurt but it does. To get your feelings walked on and all people do is dismiss them. You mean nothing to me, I'm going to ignore you and your feelings because THEY DONT MATTER. Yeah thanks.. actually I DO have feelings. I try to put everyone's feeling and wants and needs way before my own and I get nothing in return? Not even respect? thank you very much. It means a lot, really. I think it's funny how some people believe "what goes around comes around" and "good karma." THEY DO NOT EXIST. Don't get your hopes up because naturally people are selfish and don't take others into consideration. Thank you all, you wonderful people you!

Relationships

Relationships are so irritating. I mean I feel like they can obviously teach you a lot during high school but they're too distracting and stressful to get myself into. I want to be happy without one, and I'm slowly making that happen. High schools a growth period, sure you should have fun but it's more getting ready for situations in which you'll have to handle. I feel like relationships at this point are no longer for me. It's not what I'm looking for and whenever a related situation comes up it's super awkward because I just don't want to think about them. I don't need a relationship now and I'm almost better off without one. I want to be fully independent and I somewhat feel like having another person in your life like that would be a burden (well for now). I just want freedom right now, to be myself. I want to focus on me, no more of everyone else all the time.